Never fall in Love

I've been trying to get a chance to write for several days now. It's slow enough today at work just to get something written here.

Anyway, I spoke to my SD "smallville" guy back on the 25th or 26th of October. Wasn't the best of our conversations. It felt like it was our last.
Never fall in love!
But what if it did work out between us? What if I was actually......something.....someone.....meant something? Would I say "never fall in love" then?
Yes...... I would.
You know why? Because it still hurts. No matter how you dice the fucker. You love that person so much either way, that if something were to happen, one of you died, left, even if you knew you had to let them go, in order to save their life, it cuts you so deep inside that untill you die physically, you know you have died already. That day. That hour. That minute.
Now I am not saying that I felt THIS stongly for "smallville", but I felt it getting there. Just creeping up on me. Watching,.... waiting,.... like a tiger stalking it's kill.
Do I sound sane? Ofcourse not! Who is anyway these days?
I want to hang out with him more. Do the friend thing. We would have so much fun together. So much laughs. I know it.
"You can't skip the branches on the tree of fate." - ME
That's if you believe in that kind of stuff. Fate.
Fate, fate, fate...................it can kiss my ass for all I care.
Never fall in love!
I have to vent. I need to vent. I feel like I always loose. I don't feel I have the upper hand.
We have so much in common. Why can't we be? Be more? Together? I used to believe in omens. But now it feels like fate is putting them in my life to sike me out. The bastard!
You know, I could just keep on ranting like this for quite a while. No real set thought, no structure. But right now....right here... I think I will stop.
Never fall in love!